Why should I look back when a new era has already begun with new hopes and promises? No, I will not go back the past no matter how much your impulsive teen self want me to be. But we shall still sing to the tunes of Ben E. King’s Stand By Me.
Promises and Disappointments
I heard the most extraordinary love story the other day, straight out of the movies. Like a lot of love stories, the promise of the beginning never quite matched up to the hopes and expectations of everyday life. The farther the distance between the promises made and promises kept, greater the disappointment. My life is a series of disappointments. But as i wrote in my Higher Secondary english exam essay and i don’t know why i remember this, “life is a series of series of disappointments and failures and the only way to be a success in life is not to lose hope and never ever give up.” Been six years since then though it seems longer. We all need to move on. As I have moved on from you. I thought it would take longer but surprisingly it only took two months and I have never felt better.
That’s the best we could do in this mortal life. Never lose hope. Never give up. if you give up you would be doing a dis-service to yourself. But that was quite a love story of cosmic coincidences, purple passion, long distance love and heartbreaking disappointments. I haven’t heard anything like it before. If only i were an amazing novelist a la Michael Ondaatje. But i do have a song that defines the tale. There’s always a Death Cab song that suits well to any given tale. Did I mention Transatlanticism is probably one of the awesomest songs written in the last decade? To think I went to India and missed the death Cab concert in Philly last month. Somebody, please shoot me.
déjà vu
The phone rang. I thought you called, but no, it was you. Not good. I am having a hard time trying to believe the déjà vu is not more than a strange cosmic coincidence. But having gone through the years of my life I have learned not to mistrust my intuition.
But I hate it when calls to voicemail. I really do.
Libre
Today was a good day. The feeling of freedom and a curious lightness of being is setting in. Walking around the neighborhood was a real treat. Philly is sinking in to my arteries. The housemate has also turned out to be a rather interesting and I daresay, pretty young thing. Good conversations, good times. A bit darker hue to the evening though with revisiting Star Wars Episode III. My favorite sequence from the movie.
Anakin Skywalker: [after killing Mace Windu and in disarray] What have I done?
Darth Sidious: You are fulfilling your destiny, Anakin. Become my apprentice. Learn to use the dark side of the Force. There’s no turning back now.
Anakin Skywalker: I will do whatever you ask. Just help me save Padme’s life. I can’t live without her. If she dies, I don’t know what I will do.
Darth Sidious: To cheat death is a power only one has achieved though centuries of the study of the Force. But if we work together, I know we can discover the secret to eternal life
Anakin Skywalker: I pledge myself to your teachings. To the ways of the Sith.
Darth Sidious: Good. Good! The Force is strong with you, Anakin Skywalker. A powerful Sith you will become. Henceforth, you shall be known as Darth… Vader.
Anakin Skywalker: Thank you… my Master.
Darth Sidious: Lord Vader… rise.

